Even though I knew things would turn out this way I'm still allowed to be upset, right? The entire time I was wishing that everyone's predictions would be wrong.

Maybe I was subconsciously trying to make something out of nothing. He sees no future and to some extent neither do I. But maybe I was trying to convince him otherwise? And now that it's over I must accept that I wasn't able to change his mind.

I'd like to think that all I miss is the physical, but these emotions do not agree. Somehow somewhere, even if I hadn't recognized it before, I have feelings for him.

The entire time we were dating I kept feeling like I had to prove myself to him. That I was worthy of his time. That I was good enough for him so he wouldn't lose interest. I can't help but feel like he lost interest.